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Brought Low

Does anyone else get that empty low feeling when they have finished a piece of writing?  It feels a little like being a ghost.

It is not that I am done with Archie and Horatio-- not at all. But there was a section that dealt with getting ready to to Kent, and going there, and going back. That is done.

Is there anything else for it but to write again, and soon?

if anyone has an answer, I will be the one over here with the bootless cries...


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Jan. 4th, 2012 01:03 am (UTC)
Does anyone else get that empty low feeling when they have finished a piece of writing?
Yes. Most definitely. I was completely at a loss when I finished your remix and All There Is To Tell

It is not that I am done with Archie and Horatio-- not at all.
Thank heavens for that! If you were, then it really would be a bleak day.

Is there anything else for it but to write again, and soon?
I sometimes find that going back and re-reading stuff I've already written helps. Or even better re-reading stuff other people have written. Usually yours :)

if anyone has an answer, I will be the one over here with the bootless cries...
See below...

Jan. 4th, 2012 12:46 pm (UTC)
Oh, Archie helps. New day helps too. Dayclean. And I can feel my mind casting around for the next thing. There will be a next thing, it may not be any good, but it is there.

And your little pods-- I could listen to you read all day. Thank you.
Jan. 4th, 2012 12:58 pm (UTC)
Morning. Glad you're feeling brighter today :) Whatever your next thing is I'm sure it will find many appreciative readers. Me included!

Now I'm off to take toots to see John Barrowman in the panto 0_o
Jan. 5th, 2012 12:09 am (UTC)
to see John Barrowman in the panto


...fine, I'll just go back to sewing the replica RAF buttons on this probably-close-enough double-breasted greatcoat. (Yes, dressing up as Capt. Jack Harkness in a couple of weeks.)
Jan. 5th, 2012 01:02 am (UTC)
Awww I could have asked for his autograph for you! He threw in several Torchwood and Captain Jack lines for good measure.

Yes, dressing up as Capt. Jack Harkness in a couple of weeks.
I hope you costume doesn't involve red crushed velvet breeches....
Jan. 5th, 2012 01:13 am (UTC)
Nope, basic Torchwood: the coat, grey wool trousers, light blue dress shirt, white undershirt, red braces. I don't look a thing like him but ASK ME IF I CARE. Because my other Whovian costume is Idris and I don't want to drive to the thing in a blue-dyed wedding gown.
Jan. 4th, 2012 01:14 am (UTC)
Oh, and I've also mailed you a little distraction.
Jan. 4th, 2012 01:26 am (UTC)
I have a vague memory that this might have happened to me once upon a time. But this is really the first time I've been actively writing since 2005. This is what it's been like for me, this year:

April: Acquire Hornblower DVD box set, because eternaleponine and I want to ogle Ioan Gruffudd, because of reasons. Both of us instantly ship Horatio/Archie.

eternaleponine writes some fanfic. (The only one she's posted is "The Laws of God and Man," which is at AO3 under that title and that author. I recommend it.)

I write "More Things in Heaven and Earth." Which is part of the growing headcanon that eternaleponine and I are developing. Feel relatively content.

May and following: She and I continue to develop headcanon and RP by text message and at home. Most of the Archie backstory in Pole Star originates there - Rajah the tiger rug, Miss Fletcher the governess, the orphaning at five and going to live with his mother's sister, Cook, his assorted cousin-siblings, how bossy bluestocking Emily eventually gets a husband. She: "I need some girl names. Give me some girl names." Me: *reels off the names of the Bennett sisters* She: "How about boy names?" Me: *reels off assorted Kings of England* - like that. Not much of this goes into finished stories.

Whenever L&O:UK 5x06 "Deal" airs on BBC America: I say "OH HELL NO" and start in on "Matt Devlin Lives." Finish it around October or whenever I posted it. You read it and point me over here.

Post "More Things in Heaven and Earth" here. Get feedback. Remember how awesome that is. Start on "Pole Star."

November: Find self unable to work on Pole Star while on vacation. Write "Lucky at Cards" on airplane. Post.

December: Horatio and Archie stage a sit-down strike on Pole Star until I bake them a seed-cake. Thwart their obstinacy by posting the documented seed-cake process.

New Year's Eve: Finish and post Pole Star. Realize that the LKU plotbunny I was trying to shoo away so I could finish up Pole Star is practically full-grown. Hear huge swaths of dialogue while driving car.

New Year's Day: Have to turn off audiobook in car because it's competing with my words in my head. Type out "Fortune and Men's Eyes" over the course of the afternoon and evening. Post it.

Yesterday and today: Watch BBC Sherlock. Start hearing other random bits of dialogue mostly directly following "Fortune." Mostly from secondary characters' POV. Share them with my early reader Margaret.

So... while I EXPECTED post-Pole Star letdown, considering how much of it there was, it... didn't happen. Instead I have more fic! Especially after "Fortune" which calmed the woe I'd been feeling since April. It's... odd.

I do recommend writing again, and soon!
Jan. 4th, 2012 01:01 pm (UTC)
I am so glad that the low feelings did not get you too. I sounds like the writing is just flooding you. I want to read it all.

And now I am picturing Archie and Horatio insisting on seed-cake. They have done a lot of eating in my fictions, i realize. They seem to be highly food motivated. (Dr. H, by contrast, lives on coffee alone, poor man.)

I do feel better this morning.
Jan. 5th, 2012 12:26 am (UTC)
I'm glad you feel better. It was really pretty ridiculous, with the seed-cake.

Me: *write write write, get to the point where Lady Clarke offers seed-cake, plus skipping ahead to the Shadow of Simpson scene, because i write out of sequence* Well, lads, I'm off to the land of Harry Potter for a few days. I'll bring the notebook in case you've anything to say, but you can consider it a break.

Horatio and Archie: *show off being cute for me to the extent of an unrelated 240-word ficlet, but do not advance the narrative, being too busy admiring the theme park*

Me, back home: Thank you for the ficlet! Everyone liked it. Now, where were we? Right. Seed-cake.

Boys: About that seed-cake...

Me: Yes? Don't distract me, you're supposed to be having a conversation about the theater with Lady Clarke.

Boys: But you said there'd be seed-cake.

Me: The servant will be in with it soon - the Madeira was already on the sideboard. Now. Kitty Cobham?

Boys: Nope. Seed-cake.

Me: Really?

Boys: We KNOW you have cookbooks. Go look it up, why don't you? We'll lay odds you have just about all the ingredients. And you've never had any, had you? Hadn't you ought to know what it's like before you write about it?

Me: I am not going to be engaging in long descriptive passages about its flavor. This is not Proust and the madeleines here.

Boys: What?

Me: Never mind, after your time. Archie, are you a bit reluctant to see Miss Cobham again?

Archie: Yes, I certainly AM and I shan't talk about it until I get some seed-cake!

Me: ...you know, I do have everything in the house for it except the yeast.

Boys: And pick up some Madeira, too, while you're out!

I don't blame them for being food-motivated. When you consider the years they likely spent existing on ordinary sailors' rations because they had no money to supplement it, or what they endured in El Ferrol... believe me, one of the general notions hovering post-"Fortune" is Mrs. Wilson, Archie's New Cook, Believes He Needs Feeding Up. She has a northern voice like Matthews. I wonder if she's related?
Jan. 5th, 2012 01:42 am (UTC)
I love the way they talk to you in that confident comfortable way. I would make them seed cake too. Dear Boys.
Jan. 5th, 2012 01:48 am (UTC)
They know I have their best interests at heart and don't intend to let them come to any lasting harm, so they feel free to be nuisances, is what it is!

I don't mind. I love having them around.
Sep. 26th, 2016 03:50 am (UTC)
That was a very good year! *Am amazed at people who can write, and very very thankful that they let me read it.*

I loved Rajah the tiger rug. Rajah and Mr Friend wish they could have met each other. But naturally Rajah is more splendid.
Jan. 4th, 2012 09:05 am (UTC)
Oy, stop troubling deaf heaven!

SRSLY, the feeling of finishing something is often, for me, one of deflation. No - actually, that deflation comes as I near the end of it, as part of some sort of process of things coming to a close. The only solution is to write more, and maybe something slightly different.
Jan. 4th, 2012 01:32 pm (UTC)
I will try more and different. It sounds as if it may be a natural process-- like cramps. Does not mean I like it. Still, it is better today.

That icon is adorable. Don't you just want to take him out and buy him ice-cream? He is by far the cutest little scientist on that page. (Although Marie Curie was a pretty girl.) I never did like Edison.

Did poor Turing have a happy early life at least?
Jan. 4th, 2012 01:34 pm (UTC)
I'm not sure he did, really. Parents out in India so he and his brother were farmed out and then at boarding school. But my, what a lovely boy.
Jan. 4th, 2012 03:38 pm (UTC)
Sometimes the post writing sad can come on even before it is finished - and sometimes there is a new thing to chase it away.

sorry that it has been afflicitng you and hoping that it is banished by all kinds of good things

and looking forward to more eglantine magic in due time

am just arranging for a little something to come your way which I failed to get in time for Christmas - email follows about that
Sep. 26th, 2016 03:52 am (UTC)
The good thing about reading this four years late is that I can rest comfortably assured that you did indeed find more words in your head - and they were all so good! If I had read this in real time I would have been frightened that the stories were coming to an end. Noo! Don't stop!
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