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Not to dwell on it--

This school shooting today is right near where my MIL and my husband's brother live. I lived in Connecticut as a little child myself. (To age 5.) And I lived there as an adult with a little kid that age. They are in a different town, but not too far away. The state is small. You can drive across it in a few hours.

The photos with that slanted winter light look like home to me. I know those trees, those cops. I know how those people sound. I know how those classrooms smell. I have volunteered in Connecticut classrooms. (Not how they smell today-- but on an ordinary day. They smell of peanut butter, and mittens, and markers, and grubby little boys.)

I once saw a little boy that age in the back of the class, unnoticed by the teacher, slowly and thoughtfully licking all the dust off a TV set. I know those kids. 

I was reading the footage. Nobody knows much yet. Even when we know what we can, It won't make any sense.  And then I thought, these parents have already done holiday shopping. They have trees up. They have gifts purchased for boys and girls who are dead-- dead. What will those people do now?  

Isn't that a small and stupid thought to make the tears come?

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vespican
Dec. 14th, 2012 11:49 pm (UTC)
The Friday workday turned in to one more closely resembling a Monday. I'm grumpy. Yet the frustration I felt during the extended work day cannot compare to the anguish felt there. Another reason to ask, "what is wrong with people?"

I'm praying for them.
Dave
eglantine_br
Dec. 15th, 2012 02:51 am (UTC)
It is horrible. It makes no sense.
anteros_lmc
Dec. 14th, 2012 11:51 pm (UTC)
It's the small and stupid things that make life so precious. And that's what make the tears come.

I worked for a national news paper once, in 1996, the year that sixteen small children and one teacher were shot by a gunman in Dunblane in the Highlands. I will never forget the news reports filtering into the newsroom. The result of that tragedy was that handguns were banned in the UK.

I went out for Christmas lunch with my work colleagues today, on my way home I got a call from partner saying that he was taking daughter to casualty as she had a splitting headache, a ferocious temperature and a sudden rash. She reacts like this from time to time, it's not usually serious but we sometimes get her checked out. She came home several hours later doped up to the eyeballs with ibuprofen and complaining she was hungry. I can't help thinking about those families whose kids won't be coming home tonight, or any night. They are so precious. It doesn't bear thinking about.
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anteros_lmc
Dec. 15th, 2012 12:57 am (UTC)
One event should be enough to teach us all.
What will it take? What else could it possibly take?

The fact that this person killed six adults means that adults came running to the classroom when the trouble started.
And they would not have hesitated for a second. You're right, what ever your age, or the age of your children, that never changes.

I'm sure toots will be fine tomorrow. She will get a lot of hugs and no doubt will get annoyed at me for pestering her.

Sleep safe and well, all of you.
We will, and all of you too.
eglantine_br
Dec. 15th, 2012 07:07 am (UTC)
I made a comment here-- and posted it twice by mistake. So I tried to delete one copy and it took both. Looks funny now. I suppose everyone read it already, but I wanted to say, I mean nothing hostile by removing it.
anteros_lmc
Dec. 15th, 2012 12:09 pm (UTC)
Don't worry, I guessed :)
mylodon
Dec. 15th, 2012 09:37 am (UTC)
My Cathy was the same school year as the Dunblane kids, so that one really strikes home. Her school planted a tree in remembrance.

Guns shouldn't be in the hands of people who can't be trusted.

Give toots a big hug from me - say I got it off Richie Gray to pass on.
mylodon
Dec. 15th, 2012 09:38 am (UTC)
I have a diagnosis. That's a pirate rash. It comes from over rollicking. Confined to ship for two days and no booty. :)
anteros_lmc
Dec. 15th, 2012 12:10 pm (UTC)
I suspect over rollicking may well have been the cause! She is right as rain today and demanding booty.
veronica_rich
Dec. 15th, 2012 12:06 am (UTC)
Oddly, my sister said the same thing earlier today. Almost exactly in fact.
eglantine_br
Dec. 15th, 2012 12:48 am (UTC)
It makes me cry.
mylodon
Dec. 15th, 2012 09:32 am (UTC)
If it's a stupid thought then we're stupid together, because I thought the same.

Will anybody in your country be brave enough to stand up and make a change to gun laws?
eglantine_br
Dec. 15th, 2012 04:41 pm (UTC)
Well, Obama is a lame duck now-- so I have a small bit of hope.

It is as if the rest of the world is having a cookout, and a decent good time, and when the USA comes we have the NRA, and they are like a crazy drunk racist uncle, and we are ashamed and we cringe whenever he says anything.

They argue for concealed carry handguns, in schools and sports events. They think the problem is not enough people are armed! How can anyone reason with that?
charliecochrane
Dec. 15th, 2012 04:48 pm (UTC)
Because clearly having more guns has meant fewer of these atrocities. Not.
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